This Valentine’s Day I sit reflecting on V-Day 2020. Jessi (my daughter) and I were living with my brother and his family, sharing a queen-size bed, and broke AF. It was a sad day as we’d just found out why Jessi’s tax return hadn’t made it to the bank. The Department of Education snatched that … Continue reading Reflections on Our Crazy 2020 Valentine’s Day
Author: mecapitale
Inner-Self Trust
The storms of life hit hard, stirring emotions and leaving us feeling out of control. Since I posted Precarious, I scramble to find a job situation that doesn’t suck. My daughter relocates in two weeks to start her new life, so with little time left to gain employment, the walls were closing in, and my … Continue reading Inner-Self Trust
Precarious
First and foremost, there were so many subjects that I thought helpful, entertaining blogs for you guys, but alas, I haven’t posted in a month. But today, I need to talk things over with a friend. You see, this week has been a precarious one. I feel alone and tired. Once again, I find myself … Continue reading Precarious
What Is V/S What Could Be?
What do you think is more powerful; your life as it seems right now or the life you desire to have? Tricky question, isn’t it? If someone had asked me that question ten years ago, I would have answered, “My life as it seems now—Duh!” But somewhere in between those ten years, I begin to … Continue reading What Is V/S What Could Be?
Training Wheels
Do you remember how it felt when you peddled a bike for the first time without the training wheels? I remember feeling a bit frightened as I started wobbly. But my confidence grew the longer I stayed vertical and coasted with more stability. That’s what letting go of worrying about the future, and cutting cords … Continue reading Training Wheels
Spiritual Detox, Part II
“Are you alright, Ma?” “No.” Jessi glanced down at the colorful letters I scratched out in oil pastel and commented, “That’s dope.” I chuckled and told her that I thought it was trash. She asked me what was wrong, and I told her I was scared, just so fucking tired and scared. Jessi insisted I … Continue reading Spiritual Detox, Part II
Spiritual Detox, Part I
Fear floated around in my body for days. I decided to chill-out on the energy healing because of the full-on war raging inside my mind and body. At least that’s what it felt like to me. I awoke in the middle of the night a few days ago, scared as fuck. This heavy feeling of … Continue reading Spiritual Detox, Part I
Barely
Waking up with enough enthusiasm to spring out of bed, ready to slay the day, is how I intended to greet the world. But this morning wasn’t having any of that, as barely beat enthusiasm by a landslide. You know what I’m talking about? I was not excited to workout, and I most certainly did … Continue reading Barely
Almost Missed It
As I sit here contemplating my new blessings, I realize that I have the propensity to worry my way straight through them. Do you know what I mean? It’s like receiving a treasured gift, but instead of enjoying it, you put it away to use or wear it on some more deserving date in the … Continue reading Almost Missed It
Promises, Promises
This weekend I broke a promise to myself. As awareness kicked in, and I realized this was the second time it had happened with this particular issue. But let’s step back for a second. Meriam-Webster describes a promise as a declaration that one will do or refrain from doing something specified. Now we all break … Continue reading Promises, Promises